i spoke to you and you said enough
i swallowed logic and lack of you
the 11000 miles seem like too much
but i don't want them to
my voice won't calm itself but i hope it  does you
my voice won't calm itself but i hope it's truth
songs of solace songs of pain
will i make it this time, this time to the refrain
i want to express what i haven't felt
i want to touch, to touch myself
the lingered sting, the waddling march
corn flour heart with a mouth of starch
come to me in dreams in thought
come to me in this space so taught
i tried to to touch the strings
but they sang they sang and i screamed
i went to a dark corner and looked beneath
i saw a city, i saw the trees,
i breathed a flame that burned another
that took this torch and passed it to my soul
passed it to another who spoke in snow
of ice and ages so very cold
and i said goodbye to the words i know
can i talk to you, your smile again?

lo que vi esa noche: el amor entre dos
cierto y infalible, qué vistos
normalmente sí, entonces no
desde saliste, no me alegro
de que tengas fe en otro hombre
quien yo no será, y tu sonrisa
no me lleva lo que me llevaba
cómo tu voz canta ahora
es basta para llevar lagrimas
y regreso a la caricia de otra mujer
encontrar que no puedo sentir nunca más
camino para los muelles para ser
solo con las ondas y como rompen
y para mirarlas chocar como mi vida
quiero que los mares me ven también
y cuando me ahogo, ella desaparecerá. 

antes de que caiga en el olvido (antes de que se me olvide)
lo que se ve desde el balcón
desde el sol hasta los pies
la vi tu silueta en una constelación
te miré nadando a través del cielo
evaporaste con el amanecer
y las ondas que te llevaron
nunca te vi otra vez

se bailan; se cambian; 
paso a paso, se van lejos
y tan lejos, las estrellas

y así, busque a ti en la Vía Láctea
con bote y sextante navegué hacia ella
naufragué en el agujero negro
ya había terminado, había intentado
si sólo lo hubiera sabido que así fue
que estabas nadando para ser libre

se bailan; se cambian;
paso a paso, se van lejos
y tan lejos, las estrellas

the year repeats
dates feel like beats
that kick snare tuesday
i wished that you'd stay



life at arms length
it had an appeal
the power to touch
never to feel
a shield for a heart
knife for a tongue

at a loss for words in the age of information
i'm smithing my blade to fight with weapons
but there you've got your smith & wesson
yet your tongue stabbed like a knife
but the pain is gone now, numb
the drinks are gone but the toll is left
second thought and remorse regret
what's happened now i was dreaming
no a nightmare surely not real
is that i who turned off the light
who walked away dry eyed
as if i'd known better, something more
that long crawl back to my empty bed
the icicles choked my throat
and i am the shell of a once or never being
a selfish soul hollowed out by choice
that of my own, some further purpose
believing what was right existed
to learn that i know only hurt

the walk has wore my legs
street and peace signs fly
what was it i said
when the tears started to fall
i'll say it again

the bottle tips kiss my lips
glass the only skin they've touched
liquors caress my tongue
but leave the same sting
as when she left

so my whiskey piss spits
on my white flag fallen
the wooden pole sits
splintered and chipped
from standing too long.

as i wiped the steam from the mirror
i saw a new face
one i had not realised
i had always been

scissors and razors
struck my face
attempts to see a new fate
only to etch my own in stone

in the forest i watch the fauna reach
and hope to mimic; to grow
but my acts and i remain
alongside the petrified wood.

worlds apart
we drift
farther

mistakes are made
i am
sorry

in the dark
i cry
inside

i thought
i could
stay

i thought
i would
stay

but i have been gone for too long.

yes and no
there's a question remaining
the answer awaits
a watched pot i try to heat
the boiling contents which
burnburnburn me deeply

and so i can't know
what to do
the lover's limbo
an eternal hell for me

the wrong choice once
and now there's
nothing
left to choose


i think that i'm going to lose

a drunk night of forgetful thouhts
a turn down the wrong lame
the touch of another
the break of a heart
lust misplaced
a world forgot

and now i collapse
and now i crumble
and now i need her

and now she hardens
and now she is better
and now she needs no one